THE SEVenth blog...

THE SEVenth blog



Nearly -Three months later...





-gasp- she lives!



I do. I do, I know I disappeared for almost three months.. not that it seems to matter because my only follower, that shows she's a follower doesn't have internet...



Anyway, want to know what will happen at 3:48 am -I'm sorry. My Mother won't make up her mind, she tells me 3:48, I say 3:48, she sees that and tells me I'm wrong and it's 3:38. So the hour was 3 am, the minute was 8, as for the other number... I'll have to find my birth certificate again.- tonight? Do you? My life as a fourteen year old ends and the one as a fifteen year old begins. It's depressing to me. Things just seem to be moving faster and faster. Two years ago I couldn't tell you almost exactly what I was doing the year before on my birthday, now I can.



Why? Because it feels like yesterday, it feels like everything is passing me by and honestly I know I'm the only one who can speed up and not let it pass on by, it's just scary. I know I need a more active role in my life. I'm aware of it. I don't like it. I would prefer to just going back to when:



"Hi, I'm -insert name-. Will you be my friend?"



and suddenly you're joined at the hip. When my whole world was the property I lived on. When I believed in Santa Clause, The Tooth Fairy, The Easter Bunny etc.etc. I like the memories I've gotten since those things have ended and if I was given the choice to take it all back, honestly I don't think I would.



It's just the knowing now that hurts, knowing things like, how there are people who afraid to be happy, afraid to say or do the wrong thing, people who feel like they have 'walk on eggshells', there are people who dying defending others who don't even show their appreciation, there are people who don't know their parents and people who wish they didn't. Millions of things that some people couldn't even imagine, things that are happening to others. People do things and others judge them but they don't understand what that person was going through, why they did it, they're not living their lives. While some people can sit and take their lives for granted, others feel the need to take their's and end them. It's the knowing the horrible habits people have taken up over the years, like all of the trash we are creating, the power we're wasting (Hey, that rhymed.)



Knowing that tomorrow is not promised to be here, that when you awoke this morning it was a blessing not just another day. (I believe God exists, it's the rules I'm trying to get a better handle on.) Knowing that there is a possibility that everything you know is a lie. That's more something for some one who sees from a perspective [seeing is believing.] instead of [believing is seeing].



the point of this is, knowing how big the world is, is a freakin' scary thing and knowing that once you do something, you can't ever take it back. You could be forgiven, but what you did has been done, is frightening too.



Alright, well that's it. Next I'm writing a letter to myself for reading in... let's say three years?

"Everybody asks me who the H is she? That weirdo with five colors in her hair.." - McFly

THE SIXTh blog.

Yo-low.

Blogggg Six.


I don't even remember today.....

I went to the mall. Funnn. I ate a sandwhich from frickin' burger king. Never again. Never again. I got five books; Kissed by An Angel, My Sister's Keeper, Vampire Kisses 1, 2 and 3. Never let me lose in a book store. I got a pair of shoes. Converse-like. A pink butterfly shirt. *grins* I want that skirt to go with it.... it matches though. *grins wider* I wrote an idea down. The main characters are: Nikolas & Katie and Katie isn't fully there... =]

I got ice cream from Ben & Jerry's. I'm missing stuff, but I have a good excuse. In case you missed it; I'm tired. I got up at like 1 and read Breaking Dawn till 4. Then went down and finished my chinese food.

"You look so sound asleep, I can't believe there your backbones missing and you never had a clue at all." - Backbone - There For Tomorrow

THE FIFth blog.

Hiya.

Blog five.

I road around in a car for a while.

I got Internet.

I got Chinese food.

I got a Slurpee[sp?] from 7-eleven. Ohmydear! Dude, it was so awesome. But I accidentally left it out so, it's probably melted now.

I got some warm vanilla sugar conditioner from Bath & Body Works. Awesome, right?

I slept from sometime this afternoon till one and finished Breaking Dawn. I stopped reading it until I became completely and fully uninterested in it. Not on purpose, I just discovered other books.

That's it. That was my Monday. Funnn.

I'm not very enthusiastic about this blog. Too tired to be. Though I'm not that tired, I'm that over-slept type of tired. Anyway, quote:

"I'm your Saint, will you be my Savior?" - Deathbed - There For Tomorrow

THE FOUrth blog.

I took the picture but the writing is out of Breaking Dawn by Stephenie Meyer.

June 14/15 2009
Yo! How’s everybody doing today?

My answers:

Well, that’s good.
Congratulations!
Oh, I’m sorry.
No freakin’ way!
Hope you feel better soon.

Lol, so anyway, read the last blog to understand. I fell asleep around 11:30 was woken up around five hours later. Then! Krissia and I went to get pedicures, I didn’t realize it was Sunday until we got there and they were already closed. So, we stopped by another place and they didn’t open on Sunday. Hah. We ended getting some Baskin Robbins, which was yummy. =] When Krissia and I arrived back at the house, my Uncle David was here. My Father decided to play the lying game, him and Uncle David played that until we decided to play Wii. Fun, you should get one. =] If you already have one, I’m jealous. Krissia, my Uncle David, my father and I played for a little while. Krissia went wherever she goes and not long after Uncle David, My father and I were sitting outside. Uncle David played guitar for us. He’s good. He taught me a song. Fun. Then my Father and I had an iPod play-better-song-for-other-person thing. =D From what I’ve listened to all day, I’ve decided the below:

Whiskey Lullaby – Brad Paisley Feat: Alison Krause. Has an amazing guitar.
Stay – Sugarland. Is Awesome.
Deathbed – There For Tomorrow. Is amazing.
Come As You Are – Nirvana. Is pretty wicked.
You Sang To Me – Marc
Anthony. Is pretty cool.
Diary of Jane – Breaking Benjamin. Totally Awesome.
The not-so-acoustic acoustic version is awesomely amazing.
Not Meant to Be –
Theory of A Dead Man. Cool but too popular.
Make Up Your Mind – Theory of a
Dead Man. A wicked sound.
This Afternoon – Nickelback. Total wickedness.

I’d tell you more but that’s boring me. =D My day today was short. It was okay. I feel horrible for falling asleep. Hopefully this isn’t a repeat. I’m going to try and sleep. Sooooo…. Goodnight. ;]

“We’ll wake up, we’ll make up and do this for the last time. We’ll wake up,
we’ll make up and do this for the last time, if we break up, we’ll wind up
losing both of our minds, so wake up, let’s make up and do this for the last
time.” – Make up Your Mind – Theory of a Dead Man

THE THIrd blog.

Hello. I am going to provoke you to speak back by asking, how are you? Now, if I actually get an answer is a whole other story. But anyway. The third blog. Woo. I've never made it this far. I don't think I have ever actually been interested long enough to even try. Okay, this is my blog. So, I'm going to talk about me. Moi. Here goes :
I’m suppose to go to visit with my Nana -grandmother on my Father’s side- in, oh, tomorrow. Stay at her place. Do stuff.. It won’t actually set in that I’m going until I’m on my way to the airport. I’ve decided to stop in everyday and tell ya about my day, even if I only have one word to say. I’m going to take lots of pictures. Try and write. And do whatever it is I do when I visit that side of my family.




Okay, just forget most of that above, because I’m here! I’m not aloud –rule appointed by me- to tell you where here is. Whatever. My flight sucked. Sorry, my flights sucked. I had to take two flights and just as I knew would happen, one of my freakin’ bags got lost. I mean the bag is safe NOW! But it wasn’t.
Seriously, Dude, it’s the ONE thing I ever actually worry about while going riding an airplane. I don’t worry about the plane crashing –for any reason; like crazy pilot, electrical storm, loss of power, no gas, many other things- it’s a thought that barely crossing my mind for a millisecond. Guess just what the heck was in that bag I lost too! My Writing, my favorite books, my guitar practice book, my pictures, a card for my father, a gift for my Nana, some other important stuff, I was mentally freaking out, I was holding back tears –or as I now like to say, wishing away tears- the entire ride back to her house. Of course, when I finally arrived and pealed –yes, I do mean pealed,- my clothes off and put on some jammies. =]
I was sitting on the bed, my Nana was watching T.V. in her room, Papa Bill –her husband- had gone to dreamland. The most wonderful thing EVER happened, as if the air conditioner being broken wasn’t bad enough, no, the power had to go out and turn the fan off. I gave up and went to sleep, when I woke up I had to take a cold shower, which I never do, I’m always afraid I’ll hate them but with the temperature so hot it was actually nice. Then Elsie –My Dad’s girlfriend in the position of stepmother, whatever doesn't really matter, she's nice to me. That's the important part. – and her Mother came and picked me up took me to my Dad’s house, which wasn’t close at all, but it was the first air conditioned place I’d been that I could really feel the air since I left my house, roughly twenty-four hours earlier. Though they spoke Spanish the entire ride, I was fine, I had my music and I wrote, I started two stories and a poem thing, listened to ‘next contestant’ – Nickelback, Burn the Night Away – There For Tomorrow, There For You (acoustic) – Flyleaf like fifteen times in a row. I don’t think I’ve ever heard how beautiful I am as many times as I had yesterday and the day before. Jennifer –Elsie’s younger daughter- I didn’t talk much too. In fact, I think I said ‘hi’ and got a hug, that’s it. Actually, I didn't see much of her.

I rode in the car when Krissia – Elsie’s older daughter- and I drove her to a party, we ended up getting Krissia a sandwich, then going to papa John’s where Jennifer’s friend’s mom picked her up. Later I ate the pepper that comes in the box, in my opinion it’s hot but I love it. I had to drink three Capri-suns before it went away. I then sat outside with my father, showed him some of my pictures, we talked for a little. We picked Jennifer up and came back here, everyone went to bed while I lied in a bed for two hours then gave up and decided I just wasn’t going to sleep. I charged my phone for a bit. Then text my mother, which of course we was no help, she told me to get up, I did and listened to my music, I drew boring so I charged my laptop, wrote this, now I’m all hungry. Which sucks because they’re still asleep. Don’t know what to do.

Still not tired! I stayed up from seven until eleven. Slept three hours, got in a car with no air conditioner. Rode down a highway for an hour, then rode around in circles for half an hour. Went in the airport, sat on a bench for like five minutes then went through security. Nana and I got some food then sat down; we ate and met someone whose sister worked with Nana. They talked about the lives of people they knew.
We were called on the airport so we separated then went to the next state while Nana slept the entire time. I people-watched/listened. Turned out, the people behind me were going to Montreal and New York. This little girl in the next row up and across seemed to like me and the people behind her. She got out of her Mom’s arms and walked over to me –She was like two-. The Soldier next to me, listened to his iPod once we were in the air, he had an iPod touch! He was listening to his music so loud I could almost make out what it was. The Women next to him, played with the little girl.
One of the flight attendants was quite assertive. Almost mean. That airplane was completely full, our next one had barely anyone in it and I was sure I was the only one under twenty-one. But the flight attendant was an older lady and very nice to me. Nana slept until the wheels slammed into the ground. The person behind us, was a pilot which I thought was funny. Back at the beginning of the ride, it was quite random when he said “shh, don’t tell.” He was meaning how even though everyone was suppose to have turned everything off, he was still on the phone.
Then you’ve heard the rest of what happened. I suppose I’ll write again tonight or something. Buh-bye.

“I don’t deserve you, cause I’m not there you, though I wish I would be.” –
There For You – Flyleaf

The First Blog.

Yea, that first blog is always awkward for me. I never have anything to say. I don't have any idea what to say. It just sits there. Waiting for me. Considering I doubt many will read this. Like Bre said, we could probably say just about anything we want to. She said

''Pasta sauce' (And that pasta has a short 'a' sound, just like my canadian
buddies say it.)'

and nobody has anything to say about that. That doesn't mean I'm going to turn around and say something like

Blueberry Pancakes

That's not the point of my blog. The point of this blog is the fact that this one is my first blog here. Not much meaning after that, which is probably why, I mentioned the detail that Bre said what she said. I needed more than one sentence to my blog. Meaning, I may say a whole lot of pointless stuff, although,

one man's trash is another's treasure.

I completely understand and agree with that. Speaking of, you may not know much about me, or you've known me forever, either way; I'm going to tell you some things about myself.

1. I've checked the dictionary about five times since I started this blog.


2. I want to dye my hair deep orange, wild fire red maybe with purple streaks, it's not likely to happen but a girl can want.


3. The moment I randomly speak to a stranger, my heart races, doesn't matter how simple that statement is, example: When I was at walmart the cashier asked what the abbreviation for Missouri was, it was a simple answer, I answered but that didn't stop jumping speeds.


4. I absolutely love to take pictures.


5. I like to write.


6. Read, also but the books reports that go with the books are a little annoying.


7. I concentrate better when listening to music rather than when sitting in silence.


8. I really want some new video games.


9. I am extremely sarcastic but I will never say anything sarcastic to hurt you, it's only to make you smile or laugh.


10. I am going to give a random quote and a picture in every one of my blogs, to be some what different, for all I know hundreds of other people already do that but that's not my point. The picture and quote may or may not have anything to do with each other or the blog they're on. Starting now:

"Coincidences are moments when God chooses to remain anonymous." - Unknown